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- Dinesh Bhattarai
- 510 words
- 3 min
Be there medium or even better platform, procrastination will always get in my way, just like Elliot gets muddled every now and then by Mr Robot and he does not seem to understand what’s happening around, completely wrapped inside his own head.
Don’t call me lazy, I completed two seasons of Mr Robot in two days (when i should actually be studying Electrical Machine for my exams) after completing Breaking Bad in 4 days (should have studied Microprocessor here). Some of you might get it faster but that’s not the point here. I can do things and I’m not lazy. I’m too good to be a lazy. I’m master of procrastination though; I can’t say exactly my level of procrastination.
Life of a procrastinator is in the head. He knows exactly what needs to be done. He knows the consequences. And then there comes a wild storm which sweeps him away from his train of thought and gets lost until the last minute. I say, discipline is what we lack.
The circuit for procrastination is so well designed and vastly optimized that this part of brain takes us far ahead before any other part can even figure out what’s happening. It’s like live-lock for the rest part of the brain, too much information to process. Live-lock turns into deadlock when we realize that we needed to complete our project and 90% of the allotted time has already passed. Rest of the 10% of time gets 90% of the work done. That makes our mind optimized for speed and attention, at least that’s what I believe.
Marry, and you will regret it; don’t marry, you will also regret it; marry or don’t marry, you will regret it either way. Laugh at the world’s foolishness, you will regret it; weep over it, you will regret that too; laugh at the world’s foolishness or weep over it, you will regret both. Believe a woman, you will regret it; believe her not, you will also regret it… Hang yourself, you will regret it; do not hang yourself, and you will regret that too; hang yourself or don’t hang yourself, you’ll regret it either way; whether you hang yourself or do not hang yourself, you will regret both. This, gentlemen, is the essence of all philosophy. —Søren Kierkegaard
More I try to get away from procrastination, more I feel isolated and unproductive. it’s not that I felt productive 90% of the time. It’s just that there is absolutely no way around feeling unproductive, just like Either/Or philosophy of Søren Kierkegaard.
Sometimes I think I could exploit this power for my own good. Why not divide my whole task into small chunks and set deadline for each task? This way, I could still procrastinate but also complete my project in time. Then again, batching of small tasks is actually better utilization of time and even if I convince otherwise, procrastination again gets in my way and I come back to the same fate of Sisyphus, trapped inside my own head causing a deadlock